Thursday, April 30, 2009

And now back to the show ...

So my Mom just left and we're already back to the 'schwing' of things. Two are at school, one is home sick, and the laundry proliferates despite my constant attempt to finish it. Did she really just leave yesterday! Geez.

We had the best time; it was my favorite visit with her. Thankfully, she brought the sunshine from California, so the weather was amazing, down right hot at times (ahhhh). Everywhere we looked was a bloom-fest of tulips, dogwoods, cherry trees, and more - it was gorgeous and a really special time of year! She jumped right into our 'pace' and never missed a beat. Although, I did catch her nodding off at karate, but that was after a trip to NY and our 1-Martini lunch (I was tired too!). We hit No-Joe's Cafe in Red Bank (my new favorite spot), Barnacle Bill's for bulk food and video games (the kids favorite), sauntered through Sickles Market, walked the kids to school then walked around our neighborhood, cooked and washed (and washed and washed), drove to Camden, NJ to see Andrew row in his first Regatta (wow!), took the ferry to NY (we actually had to run to try to catch the ferry, but missed it by 30 seconds, had a lovely breakfast in Atlantic Highlands and did the crossword puzzle instead), experienced Ground Zero together (read mor below). Walked the boardwalk at Asbury Park, the beach club (Surfrider) at Sea Bright, am I missing anything? We crammed a lot into a week - it was awesome.

Ground Zero. When 9/11 happened, I was pregnant with Alexander (on bedrest). Andrew was supposed to go to the movies with Josh LaPoll and Thomas was at work. It was tragic and sad, and we were so insulated. Since moving here to NJ, almost everyone I've met was personally touched by 9/11. Fathers, friends, relatives lost - it is still present here. At the site, there's not much to see, mostly construction equipment, but it's the biggest hole in the earth I've seen next to Haleakala. And the feeling is intense. There's a 9/11 museum, but we didn't want to experience something packaged. St. Paul's Chapel hit us both so profoundly. (Click the highlighted link to read more.) Suffice it to say, the shots we saw on TV of fences covered in pictures and banners and flowers surrounded St. Paul's Chapel, which is directly across the street from the fallen Towers. It's astounding that it is still standing - makes you wonder...

Leaving St. Paul's, we saw some really beautiful buildings and garden. I guess we looked confused or curious because a man stopped to ask if we needed directions. He had lived in Cupertino many years back, almost bought a house in LAH for $85,000 (what year was that?), had worked for Deutsche Bank (one of the buildings badly damaged on 9/11). He had fortuitously (or otherwise) decided to stop for a coffee that morning, a block east of his office. The first plane hit while he was getting his coffee, he thought a gas main had broken. He told us about running from the fiery ash, the force of the blast, the people jumping from the buildings, how many people he lost in his group, the grateful and guilt-ridden aftermath of his co-workers who survived. His wife had worked for the EPA, and she had to sift through what he called 'fresh kill sites' to help identify missing people. And that one of the ways to determine who had been killed was by watching the parking lots at transit stations. If a car remained there for more than a few days, it was assumed that person was missing and possible dead. And the parking lot attendant who burst into tears when he saw a woman he regonized walking to her parked car; grateful she was alive. He pointed out the charred and blackend buildings on Fulton Street, where the blast catapulted people and pieces toward Brooklyn. How and why this man crossed our path at this point in time - I don't know; his name was Mike. He told us about a restaurant a few blocks down on the way back to our ferry. We thought it only fitting to honor his suggestion, so we walked to Stella and had a martini for lunch. It was a very emotional outing.

And I'm not sure why I wanted to share all of this, maybe just to remind you (and myself) that there are people who will never forget, and that their lives were forever changed.

xoxo,
P

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Catching up

Just a speed catch up in between visits ... my sister was just here. Good weather, bad weather, kayaking, karate, New York, walks, Chardonnay (ok and Pinot), Guitar Hero, Crew watching, kid watching, pockets full of 'happies' and 'sillies', books read, weeds picked, boys chased, Peet's (of course), birthday party, NAF's met, a movie, nephews-squared, time gone too fast, tears shed, missing her so. It was heavenly. Now she knows where we are, what it looks like, where we go and who we see. It feels better, but it still makes me sad. I love being with her, she spreads joy and shares her heart - I'm so lucky.

Mom arrives this afternoon! And thankfully, it's supposed to be really warm and sunny for most of her time here. The bulbs are in full bloom everywhere; she will love seeing that. I've warned the littles that the 'manner-nazi' is coming, we'll see if they behave! If not, there's always duck tape and a squirt bottle (story for another time). Might hit the local Pancake Breakfast at the Fair Haven Fire Station on Sunday, William is obsessed with the idea. And the local swanky private school is having their annual "Whale of a Sale" fundraiser this weekend. I'm guessing it'll be like a garage sale in LAH - I hear it's awesome! Not really my gig, but we'll see.

Still fighting this nasty respiratory thing - finally broke down and took some antibiotics - think it's better, but I still sound like a whiskey-swilling chain-smoker - GEEZ!

Love and hugs,
P

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

There is beauty, still ...

It's no surprise that this has come to me on the heels of a day full of introspection; wondering what I'm missing (about myself, my kids, my relationships). Maybe missing isn't the right word, but not noticing, not feeling. Yesterday was a good day though, listening to my breath (ala Jon Kabat-Zinn), my cough (I'm kinda sick), trying so hard to hear my kids 'separately', really letting what is joyful wash over me. Life is short, I want to pay attention. And even now, I'm getting weepy - what the heck...

I finally listened to the Susan Boyle - YouTube thing, kept putting it off because ... yeah, whatever .... another Simon thing. Don't get me wrong, I'm a total AI fan - the wanna be singer in me (just ask my sister, I think I'm really good, but I'm not!) But this video clip, oh my god - and if any of you SNOPES this and tell me it's not real - GO AWAY! I want to believe that there are people like this out there, that there are voices unheard that get the chance to shine. This woman, god bless her, is 47, lives with her cats, has never been kissed (so we can assume the rest) and she sings like an angel. I get so emotional when I hear stuff like this (remember Paul?). I also cry when I hear our National Anthem (and Oh Canada because some of my favorite people are Canadian)! You don't want to be near me when the Olympics are on; I'd rather watch medal ceremonies that the actual events. What is it about watching people reach beyond their wildest dreams?

For me, emotions, like the ones that comes flying out of nowhere, are like gifts; moments to notice, reminders of, of ... goodness and beauty. I remember being in Paris, Monet's Water Lilies (which is actually several massive panels surrounding a room) and just sitting there with my eyes brimming, thinking this is so beautiful I can feel it.

So, Rock on Susan Boyle, sing your heart out Baby. Grab yourself a box of Preference, some really good tweezers and maybe a little blush - and keep dreaming!

xoxo,
P

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

taxes and tidbits...

Yup, tax time right? I still think it's heinous that the filing dates for property taxes and income taxes fall within days of each other (well, if you work the prop tax float, and you should). And if you're thinking, we're so lucky this year, read on: Intaxication: Euphoria at getting a refund from the IRS, which lasts until you realize it was your money to start with~Author unknown. Does 'free loan to the government' mean anything! I'll stop now ...

Post Spring-break, back to our respective schedules; it's all good. Trying, with much effort, to get the house de-wintered. I've said it before, winter clothes take up a lot of space. So now, instead of three 'cute bins' for crap, we only need one. And instead of a mission-impossible coat closet, I can actually hang things up, with ease. We may be a bit premature (read: wishfully thinking) about the weather, but darn it, we are ready to be warm and sock free! Andrew left for jazz band last night in shorts. It's not that warm yet, but he's used to rowing on the water in 40 degrees, so clearly he's a little more hard core than me.

Anyhow, gotta go work on my budget(ugh) and figure out what to make for dinner (ugh) and do a few more loads of laundry (ugh) - Have a great day!

xoxo,
P

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Say Cheese

As I've mentioned before, we're a Food Network-watching family. Thankfully, amidst Sponge Bob, Nerf guns, Lego and Bionicles, I can easily settle my kids down to a 1/2 hour of Food Network. Case in point: the Barefoot Contessa has the same effect on my kids as Teletubbies did when they were really little - Ina is like a virtual qualude. She's so calm, and cheery without being syrupy. With a quiet confidence in the kitchen, (which is - 'hello, I'd kill for that island' - gorgeous in a total East Coast way) just makes you want to prepare and eat whatever she's got going on. She always has a little chuckle/nuzzle for Jeffrey (read: interesting relationship - what does he do, think I'll Google Mr. Contessa!) and she does not make excuses for loving real food. I don't think you'll find a fake food in her repetoire and I love that. Anyhow, I digress ...

We were watching her make a Cheese Danish. Alexander calls them Cheese Pockets and they're a special favorite of his! It looked pretty easy and he said he was paying attention so he could help me make them. We gathered our list of ingredients and set off for the market, a new market, one like no other here in NJ - Wegman's! No kidding, this place is like Whole Foods meets Draegers meets Andronico's meets De Martini's - even the kids thought it was totally awesome! It's a trek for sure, but might be worth it once a week.

Anyhow, this morning we made the Cheese Pockets. Alexander was so cute, 'don't forget the lemon zest, is lemon zest good, did you make the egg wash, don't forget only 1 heapy (not heaping!) tablespoon of the cheesy stuff' - it was really fun to have him involved. I can tell you, they were ridiculously simple, baked up beautifully (like Ina was here!) and they tasted so freakin' great! Of course, they're full of calories and fat, but I'll do anything for my kids! And they beat the pants off of the Tube Biscuit Monkey Bread that I made last weekend!

Hope you give them a try - Enjoy!

xoxo,
P

Monday, April 6, 2009

Yellow, lellow, whatever ...

Remember I told you about the Forsythia being in bloom - it's gorgeous, absolutely everywhere and looks like blasts of sunshine - big, bold, yellow bursts of happiness. The Littles have taken to 'noticing' whenever they see it - like every 3 seconds, "there's some, there's some, there's some ...". But the cutest think is that William (and thank you, we've finally started speech therapy) keeps calling it Poor Cynthia. Look Mom, there's more Poor Cynthia!!! I almost peed my pants it was so cute.

BTW - lightening, thunder and pummeling rain - Day One of Spring Break! April Showers bring May Flowers - yeah, it better or I oughtta ...

xoxo
P

Friday, April 3, 2009

YESSSSS, it's Friday!

I'm not usually one to say TGIF - but TGIF! Don't ask my why, but I'm whooped. I could, literally, lay down on the floor and fall asleep. Maybe it's the swimming lessons, karate lessons, copious amounts of homework, endless loads of dishes/laundry (pick one), books to be read, and a somewhat moody (albeit exhausted from double workouts and falling asleep on the kitchen table) teenager to manage. Or could it be that this was the week my husband decided 'he's going to the gym' - finally, but every day - moderation man - and BTW, come home and help with the kids. I know, it's mean of me to complain when he's getting back on the workout wagon, but I am just a little peeved that I've had kid duty all week, with no reprieve. I'm just tired and need a really good night's sleep. But, oops, I forgot, it's NCAA Final Four time. Funny how that works right? March Maddness goes all the way until April and the Oscars are over in a few hours! Really, I'm not mad, I'm just really tired .........

On a lighter note, I finished our tax stuff; off it goes. Now there's a monkey off my back. I dislike paperwork and accounting with a capital 'D', it's not in my DNA.

About my great run this week! My legs are still sore, but I can go up/down the stairs without wincing today! Geez, if I had just kept running all these years, I wouldn't be in so much pain, and I'd look like a million. But, I guess it's more fun to go through the agonizing humiliation of 'hey, you used to be really good at this, and now you're such a wuss' - Geez!

Now get some sleep would you.

xoxo
P

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Spring's Been Sprung!

Shades of fresh green leaves and splashes of yellow forsythia; gated-estates along Navesink Road lined with daffodils bursting up from the ground - it's heavenly! Spring is definitely here and the mood is so different; people are smiling and saying hello, kids are playing at the park, everyone's shedding their dark wintery coats and opting for color (literally and otherwise). There's something real about 'the Birth of Spring'; fresh perspectives, renewed committments and of things clean and fresh.

And Spring arose on the garden fair,
Like the Spirit of Love felt everywhere;
And each flower and herb on Earth's dark breast
rose from the dreams of its wintry rest.

~Percy Bysshe Shelley
(click above link to hear Vivaldi's "Spring")

And on a lighter note, I went for a run today with one of my NAF's (now simply, my NF). She's training for a marathon (you go girl!) and I'm going to tag along until I can no longer keep up. Today was great, about 30 minutes, which is an awesome start! I love running, used to do it all the time, I'm not too old for this, it's a mental state of mind - I can do mental!

Happy Spring!

xoxo,
P